Same old...

Song and Dance.  Have you heard of that saying, maybe it's a song?  I feel like everyday is the same old song and dance.  Don't get me wrong, the last few weeks have been very exciting!  Welcoming a new niece, celebrating birthday's and enjoying time with family and friends.  But do you ever feel like your life is on repeat?  I feel like I say the same things, do the same things and nothing ever changes.  In church several weeks ago during the sermon the pastor said something that really stuck with me.  Do you ever feel like you wake up in the same old bed, get in the same old shower, get dressed in the same old routine, go to the same old job, eat the same old lunch, come home from work at the same old time, eat the same old dinner, watch the same old tv and then go back to the same old bed and repeat the same old routine again the next day.  I would say that's me. 

Every morning I struggle to get out of bed to feed and take the dog out.  Then I struggle with something to wear and that in turn makes me late.  Every morning I feel like I am rushing out the door to go sit at the same old desk, talk to my coworkers about the same old thing, I answer the same old phone calls and then I come home.  Every week I have the same old conversation with myself, this week I'm going to make a weekly menu instead of making something up last minute or eating out.  Every week I say I'm going to go to the grocery store so, again I have things that are healthy instead of resorting to fast food or Mexican.  Every week I say I'm going to find my passion, and instead I get stuck in the same old rut.  And it's frustrating.  I keep going in a vicious cycle and I can't seem to break it.  I use the excuse that I'm busy and while I do have some busy nights, the truth is I'm not that busy, I'm mostly tired.  I'm tired of the same old song and dance.  But the truth is I don't know where to start.  I debate ideas over in my head by my follow though is not that great. 

Don't get me wrong, I have several things that I am truly grateful for.  I have a wonderful family and great friends!  I don't typically get so negative on here, I just really needed an outlet to think through some things.  Our church does a young adult community gathering once a month called Vespers.  Its a renewing time of worship, prayer and communion.  So tonight I'm going to take that time to reflect and start fresh with a new attitude.

Quick Update

The last two weeks feel like a month have gone by! Last week I came down with strep throat and a bad cold. I can't remember the last time I had strep throat and I'm not sure where I could have caught it.  Thankfully no one else caught it.  I was so worried that my sister was going to go into labor and I wouldn't be able to be there to see the baby! 

Speaking of baby, Lainey Danielle has finally arrived!!  My sister went through several hours/days of labor to finally have that sweet baby girl at 12:09am on April 18th.  We are completely smitten!! She is just a doll!  She is so alert and will look at you when you talk to her.  She constantly looks like she is trying to smile. She found her hands and keeps looking at the mittens on them, its the cutest thing! I've posted these pictures to facebook, but thought I would share here too!

Watch My Garden Grow

Living in an apartment is really tough when trying to plant a "garden".  Last year Ryan and I tried our hand at tomatoes, strawberries, red peppers and a handful of herbs.  Unfortunately the only thing that made it was the red peppers and the cilantro.  This year, since we are in a different apartment and have a little more room on our balcony, I sent my sights on bigger and better things!

I found a coupon for a website that guaranteed the plants would grow, because they only ship when the plants are ready and the conditions are correct.  I ordered a lemon tree, a lime tree and an orange tree, all dwarf size, meant to fit on a patio.  Being that they said trees, I was expecting something a little larger when they arrived.  They are all about the size of my hand and look tiny in the big pots we have for them.  I've had them about a week now and so far, they don't seem to be growing all that much. 

Lemon Tree

Lime Tree

Orange Tree

I love the idea of fresh fruit!  One day I hope to have a nice big garden that I can grow a lot of fruits and veggies.  I also one day hope to have a bee hive with fresh honey.  Oh a girl can dream!

So What Wednesday

I found the link up for So What Wednesday and I thought it could be fun!

I'm saying so what if:

• I haven't had a hair cut since before Thanksgiving.  My hair is in desperate need of a hair cut, but I'm too cheap to pay for one.  Plus, for some reason, it takes them two hours to cut my hair and I just don't feel like sitting there for that long.
• I don't floss correctly.  I went to a new dentist and they harassed me about not flossing and that I don't floss correctly.  My old dentist is looking like a saint after today!
• I wrote a review on Kudzu about the experience I had at the dentist.  It wasn't a nice review, people need to know who they are going to see! (No, it wasn't just about the flossing, there were several bad things that happened to me)
• I really want new spring clothes and shoes.  I've been eyeing shoes on eBay because I'm too cheap to buy them anywhere else.
• I don't cook dinner every night.  I have really tried to cook at home more and this week we have resorted to the Mexican restaurant down the street and peanut butter sandwiches.  I just haven't felt like cooking.
• I had a regular coke today! I've been drinking diet coke or water in an effort to cut back calories, but a regular coke just sounded so good!