On the go...

May and June have been somewhat of a whirlwind. Every month I have plans to blog more, to craft more, cook more and the list could go on and on. May and June every year seem to be our busiest months. Between both of our families we have seven birthdays, mother’s day, father’s day and then of course memorial day. Not to mention we are shopping for a house in our spare time, which isn’t going so well but that’s another story for another day. While all of these celebrations have been wonderful and time with family has been great it’s left little for anything else. I feel like I’m swimming in things I need to get done. But this past week has reminded me that none of those things are important.

Lainey and Wade were baptized on Father's Day.  It was a very special morning. My mom made Lainey's baptism dress and blanket, she looked like an angel! Later that night we received a call about my grandmother. 

My grandmother was admitted to the ICU Sunday afternoon with little to no chance of survival. She has a DNR and the doctors had done everything they could but because of the DNR they couldn’t do any more. Since it was 7pm on a Sunday night and there were no flights available our only option was to drive. We didn’t want to wait around for a flight the next day because we probably wouldn’t make it either way but at least we weren’t sitting around waiting. I truly believe us starting to drive is what helped my grandmother. She had not met my niece and told my aunt she wasn’t going anywhere until she met the baby. That truly gave us comfort to know that there was a small chance we could make it in time to say goodbye. Thankfully we got that chance, and thankfully we didn’t have to say our final goodbyes. She was able to meet Lainey and was able to go home. I thank God that we were able to have that moment with her, I know it’s a moment my family will treasure forever.

While it was very stressful being in Chicago away from work, away from home, worrying about my grandmother, it was also a breath of fresh air. I didn’t have deadlines to meet, I didn’t have to worry about whether the laundry was done, or the bathroom was clean or the list could go on and on. The only thing that mattered was being with family, enjoying each other. And it’s those moments that I treasure.

A Dream Home Wish List

With Ryan switching jobs, we had to put our house hunt on hold. I feel like every time we start looking for a house, there is always a reason we have to put it on hold. Hopefully now that Ryan is settled into a new job that we can see him being at for a while, we can really start our house hunt and have a house at the end of it.


Ryan’s new saying is “we are going to miss this” and I can honestly say I don’t think I will miss apartment living. I have been living in an apartment/dorm room for the last ten years and I'm ready to have a home!  I’ve started a mental checklist of a few of the things I would love to have.

So for my dream home wish list (in no particular order):

• A large sink. Our apartment was built in 1986 and has not been upgraded. So to wash a pan, a pot, a Crockpot, anything that is oddly shaped is near impossible. I usually end up spilling water all over the place because it doesn’t fit in the sink and is hard to rinse. There has been a time where I washed a dish in the bathtub (don’t judge).
• Cabinet space. We have very little cabinet space. Our dishes are too large to fit in the cabinet so they have to be put away at an angle, which means most of my dishes are in storage. 
• Counter top space. Are you sensing a theme? We need a bigger kitchen! There is very little to any countertop space and when you have nowhere to put a microwave but on top of the counter, well that means your space to cook is very limited.
• A working refrigerator. A few months ago our refrigerator quit working. It took the apartment complex two days to fix it, so I ended up throwing out about $100 worth of food. Since then our refrigerator has constantly dripped. We have called several times with no fix. The bottom drawer fills with water which means I have to throw out the food that sits in that drawer. We have cups inside the fridge to catch the water but it doesn’t always do the trick. 
• Neighbors that don’t smoke pot. If you follow me on twitter, you know that we come home to a very smelly apartment several times a week, especially on Fridays. It would be nice to have neighbors that don’t smoke pot, but if they do, a place where we won’t have to smell it.
• A basement! I have lovely Auburn pictures that my husband bought me for Christmas two years ago. We don’t currently have a place to hang them, so they are still sitting wrapped in the original brown paper until we can find a place for them. It would be nice to have a basement to have a sports themed room or a place for our future children to play in.
• More than two bedrooms or at least a place for an office/craft room. Right now our guest bedroom is a catch all. The dishes that I mentioned are stored in the closet, the crafts are stored in a bin in the corner. The dresser and chest of drawers (or as my husband calls it chester drawers) is filled with odds and ends. As much as I try to declutter, the stuff just accumulates. It would be nice to have a desk to sit at with the computer and or a room to organize craft supplies. 
• A fenced in yard. This one is huge. Our poor puppy sits in a kennel while we are at work. It would be nice for him to have a place to run around in after we get home. Right now he has to settle for a quick walk around the block and hanging out on our patio. Not to mention I could build my garden!
• Windows! Right now our apartment has two windows which are covered by thick curtains to keep the sun out. Unfortunately our apartment does not circulate air very well so if we leave the windows open the apartment heats up like a sauna, which means we live in a dungeon. My husband has so lovingly called me a vampire on more than one occasion. 
• A deck. I love to eat outside on patios but that can get a little expensive. I would love to have a deck or patio area that we can grill out, have a fire pit and hang out at night. A few of the homes we liked had a screened in porch as well as a deck. In a dream world I would love to have both!

I’m sure if I gave it a little more thought I could come up with several more items but alas I am out of time. I know these items don’t make a house a home, we can be happy anywhere, but they sure would be comfortable!

So What Wednesday

So I decided to once again link of with Life After I Dew for So What Wednesday. This week I am saying so what if:

• I have worn my hair “curly” this week because I’m too lazy to blow dry my hair. And when I say “curly” it’s more of a wavy, fluffy mess.

• We have had McDonalds and frozen pizza for dinner this week. We’ve been on the go and we probably will be eating something quick again tonight.

• I’m sad that all of the season finales are this week. I am slightly too invested in Hart of Dixie.

• My husband and I are slightly obsessed with Costco, we mention the deals we get in everyday conversation. My parents think we are ridiculous.

• I'm slighty obsessed with my niece.  The amount of pictures I take of her are out of control.  She is just so dang cute!

• I finally folded the clean laundry that has been sitting on the guest bed for the last two weeks.  At least it was clean, right!?

Same old...

Song and Dance.  Have you heard of that saying, maybe it's a song?  I feel like everyday is the same old song and dance.  Don't get me wrong, the last few weeks have been very exciting!  Welcoming a new niece, celebrating birthday's and enjoying time with family and friends.  But do you ever feel like your life is on repeat?  I feel like I say the same things, do the same things and nothing ever changes.  In church several weeks ago during the sermon the pastor said something that really stuck with me.  Do you ever feel like you wake up in the same old bed, get in the same old shower, get dressed in the same old routine, go to the same old job, eat the same old lunch, come home from work at the same old time, eat the same old dinner, watch the same old tv and then go back to the same old bed and repeat the same old routine again the next day.  I would say that's me. 

Every morning I struggle to get out of bed to feed and take the dog out.  Then I struggle with something to wear and that in turn makes me late.  Every morning I feel like I am rushing out the door to go sit at the same old desk, talk to my coworkers about the same old thing, I answer the same old phone calls and then I come home.  Every week I have the same old conversation with myself, this week I'm going to make a weekly menu instead of making something up last minute or eating out.  Every week I say I'm going to go to the grocery store so, again I have things that are healthy instead of resorting to fast food or Mexican.  Every week I say I'm going to find my passion, and instead I get stuck in the same old rut.  And it's frustrating.  I keep going in a vicious cycle and I can't seem to break it.  I use the excuse that I'm busy and while I do have some busy nights, the truth is I'm not that busy, I'm mostly tired.  I'm tired of the same old song and dance.  But the truth is I don't know where to start.  I debate ideas over in my head by my follow though is not that great. 

Don't get me wrong, I have several things that I am truly grateful for.  I have a wonderful family and great friends!  I don't typically get so negative on here, I just really needed an outlet to think through some things.  Our church does a young adult community gathering once a month called Vespers.  Its a renewing time of worship, prayer and communion.  So tonight I'm going to take that time to reflect and start fresh with a new attitude.