Same old...

Song and Dance.  Have you heard of that saying, maybe it's a song?  I feel like everyday is the same old song and dance.  Don't get me wrong, the last few weeks have been very exciting!  Welcoming a new niece, celebrating birthday's and enjoying time with family and friends.  But do you ever feel like your life is on repeat?  I feel like I say the same things, do the same things and nothing ever changes.  In church several weeks ago during the sermon the pastor said something that really stuck with me.  Do you ever feel like you wake up in the same old bed, get in the same old shower, get dressed in the same old routine, go to the same old job, eat the same old lunch, come home from work at the same old time, eat the same old dinner, watch the same old tv and then go back to the same old bed and repeat the same old routine again the next day.  I would say that's me. 

Every morning I struggle to get out of bed to feed and take the dog out.  Then I struggle with something to wear and that in turn makes me late.  Every morning I feel like I am rushing out the door to go sit at the same old desk, talk to my coworkers about the same old thing, I answer the same old phone calls and then I come home.  Every week I have the same old conversation with myself, this week I'm going to make a weekly menu instead of making something up last minute or eating out.  Every week I say I'm going to go to the grocery store so, again I have things that are healthy instead of resorting to fast food or Mexican.  Every week I say I'm going to find my passion, and instead I get stuck in the same old rut.  And it's frustrating.  I keep going in a vicious cycle and I can't seem to break it.  I use the excuse that I'm busy and while I do have some busy nights, the truth is I'm not that busy, I'm mostly tired.  I'm tired of the same old song and dance.  But the truth is I don't know where to start.  I debate ideas over in my head by my follow though is not that great. 

Don't get me wrong, I have several things that I am truly grateful for.  I have a wonderful family and great friends!  I don't typically get so negative on here, I just really needed an outlet to think through some things.  Our church does a young adult community gathering once a month called Vespers.  Its a renewing time of worship, prayer and communion.  So tonight I'm going to take that time to reflect and start fresh with a new attitude.